..every side and face..

do you believe that an ordinary pillow lying on your bed has extraordinary powers?.. well, i do!! i've just proven it.. wanna read my story? (like you care about my story anyway.) but maybe, you'll have plenty of time in reading this..

one night, i had a really big problem.. and i didn't know how to solve it. maybe i thought of solutions but my mind was just wandering around.. it couldn't work properly so i just wanted to give up. i wanted to sleep but i couldn't.. i was frightened and i thought i got an insomnia.. haha! lol.. i had a headache, and a toothache, my eyes were burning, and then my whole body ached!! "i couldn't believe this was happening," i said. then, i saw that my pillows are gone! my soft and lovely pillows... where did they go? i went to my mother's room.. not in there. and i when i went to my father's room, my pillows were there! oh, and i felt the "yes-finally-i-found-what-i've-been-looking-for" feeling. it's like i found a long-lost friend, or a sister gone for a long time. maybe after that, i realized that i really need a pillow to live. haha! as i lied on my bed, i felt peace.. i started thanking my pillows 'cause i know they were comforting me. the feeling was just so soothing, relaxing, and taking the stress out of me. (never tell me that i'm overacting, ok?) then i fell into a good sleep. when i woke up the other morning, the pains were gone. i thought of my really big problem and found a solution right ahead.. i realized that it was not a really big problem after all!

not only that.. my pillows help me in many ways! they become my companions in times of trouble. i can bury my face on them when i cry. i can hug them when i'm scared and when i feel all alone. i can say my problems and secrets to them and make sure that they won't tell my secrets to anybody. i play with them. they put me to sleep. and when a long day is over, i just want to be with them. it's how they work! magical and fantastic..

i just want you to know the significance of pillows in your life. maybe, you just ignore them after you wake up. you just leave them there, never thanking them for a wonderful goodnight sleep! but then, they're just there, waiting for you, never getting tired to serve you, willing to listen..

nandito na naman ako.. magkukwento ulit ng tungkol sa buhay ko. dati, masaya ako pag meron akong bagong ipo-post sa blog na 'to. pero ngayon, ewan ko ba! haha! hindi naman kasi masaya yung nangyari.. hay! ano ba, gigay? common sense naman..

actually, wala ako sa mood magkwento ngayon. hehe! pero inisip ko, baka sakaling mabasa nya 'to..so, go on. i'm taking the risk. sige, ayos lang na mabasa nyo..

i and someone got a problem.. misunderstanding lang naman yun eh! pero it struck me kasi this is the first time that we fight over something. hindi ko alam kung bakit ako pa yata yung mas guilty although i'm saying over a hundred times that i'm not the one to blame. i know it's just a simple problem that can be solved in a peaceful conversation. pero paano? we just talk over the phone and through text.. i don't think it's wise to make up over that stupid kind of communication. hindi ko alam kung kelan kami magkikita.. at kung paano kami magkakabati. it's scaring me. do i have to make the first move? but it's not my fault anyway.. i'm now torn up between my two sides fighting all the way through. for now, i can't do something. pero i know, maaayos din ang lahat..hay!

naalala ko tuloy yung childhood days ko. lagi kaming nag-aaway nung mga kalaro ko nun. minsan, nagkasabunutan pa kami ng bestfriend ko nang dahil lang sa chinese garter.. hehe! "wala..madaya ka.. sabi ko, walang kaling hanggang hips. dapat out ka na!" sabi ko na may pagka-bossy pa nun. sabi naman ng bestfriend ko, "kelan mo yun sinabi? gusto mo lang makatira kagad eh! ikaw nga dyan yung madaya." ayun, nagkagalit-galit kami.. pero after an hour lang, bati na ulit kami. tapos, naalala ko pa yung time na nagpicnic kami ng mga ka-tropa ko. sumama samin yung isang bata na sobrang takaw.. tapos, ang ginawa ko, hindi ko sya pinakain ng mga snacks namin. ayun, umiyak sya. then, after some time, naawa naman ako. kaya nagkabati narin kami. meron pa! nung naglalaro naman kami ng taguang-tsinelas, napagtripan kong kunin yung tsinelas ng kalaro ko tapos nilagay ko sa basurahan para hindi makita. inabot na sya ng gabi sa paghahanap nun.. binigay ko rin naman tsaka samin ko na sya pinakain kasi napagod sya ng husto..

ganyan mag-away ang mga bata. away-bati, away-bati. nagtutuksuhan, nag-iirapan, kampi-kampihan.. pero sa huli, sila parin ang magkakaibigan. yan ang mga bata eh! madaling magpatawad.. madaling makalimot.. madaling makipag-ayos at madaling makipagbati.

sana ganyan nalang din kami mag-away noh? yung sandali lang, ayos na ang lahat.. yung wala nang aalalahanin at iintindihin.. yung wala nang iisiping problema. alam ko namang hindi na kami bata eh.. hay naku!!

sana lang maayos na 'to,

whenever i see couples walking down the street
can't help myself but curse at my seat
i always say it's your fault by the way
then i start to blame you and it goes on all day

whenever i hear our favorite song on the radio
or see someone strum the guitar or play the piano
outrage is shaking myself inside
from all the pains, i know i cannot hide

whenever i feel raindrops falling down my face
i begin to cry, just stand there in place
many times, i mourn, and sob, then sigh
can't forget you, no matter how hard i try

'cause it always seems that everything i see
reminds me of you, i cannot flee
and brings me back just another step closer
to this relationship that i wanted to be over

>>> this poem is for my friend who is suffering from a heartbreak just recently... i know it's hard for you. but time heals every wound.. you'll see, it won't even leave a mark... cheer up gal... ^^

>>> for those affected by this poem, move on!!! if you don't know how, ask me... LOLZ!